Changes
Do you ever go through those times where you look at the past and wish that things could stay the way they always have been? You miss the "good old times", and you'd give a lot to be back in those memories? Well, this is definitely NOT one of those times!! lol I recently got a look from the outside at how I might have looked when I was say 15-17. And umm...yeah not exactly where I want to be today. Sometimes when things are going kinda roughly for me, I wish that life could be like it was back when I was really involved with my old youth group, or with my old friends. And yeah that was a really fun time in my life, for the most part. But dude, there is no way that I would ever want to be there again. It honestly looks quite immature and lame to me right now. And it is immature...and you know...that's ok. I mean some people are in that place of life right now, and they shouldn't be where I am at yet. But good grief!!! I am so glad to be out of that time. I mean would I rather be back there when I had pretty much no money($240 bucks a month was rolling in the doe...now that wouldn't even cover my car payment), no form of transportation(Miss Melissa....PLEASE can you drive us into town....PLEASE!!!) and no boyfriend or really concept of the male species(OMG...he was TOTALLY looking at me all night. And I just like chatted online with him for like 45 minutes STRAIGHT...it was the best conversation EVER....CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?!?!?!?!). Oh God....thank you no. It's kind of cute to see people in that stage...and it's a stage that everyone should go through. But thank you Jesus I am out of it. I make good money, I have a car that I love, and I have a serious relationship with a REAL LIFE boy that consists of more then me staring at him and hoping that he doesn't see me looking at him. I did definitely have some fun conversations back in those times, but I'm really glad to have moved past that time in my life. I am fully content to be where I'm at. I wouldn't trade those years for anything...they were some of the most fun...hardest....but most fun. And yet I can say GOODBYE to those and just shake my head and laugh at how truly dumb I was back in the day!